Tuesday, 25 November 2008
Oh my god...
It happens all of a sudden, just from a simple "Hi"... Too fast... And it is wrong... But it can't be helped. I want meself happy but at the same time it will hurt someone else if it keeps going. But I did sacrifice for the others happiness so many times. It's so unfair for people and as well as for me.
My dear God... Can you explain what is the thing that I'm feelin' now? The feelin' that I had forgotten years and years ago. Everyday I wake up with my heart pounding so hard as I thought it might leap out of my chest. The fear is so intense and feral it's like being an animal. What is it exactly?