Transitional Stage

Aaaahhhhh....

Aku rasa aku dalam transitional stage dari seorang single ke in relationship... I found it's hard but never give it up...

Nearly 5 years aku single aku rasa aku ilang relationship skills. To be honest, aku macam selalu jak molah girlfriend aku kecik ati. Ermmm.... I know it's my fault. Aku masih coba nyesuai dirik aku dengan relationship. Yalah, before aku sik pernah nak ambik tauk hal orang, nak care hal orang or nak jaga ati orang. But aku bukan jenis yang pengempang. Aku sik pernah nak ngeluar kata-kata kasar apa indah. Aku berkelakar dengan bagus, cuma cara nya jak sik betul & orang selalu boleh salah paham dengan apa yang aku padah. My intention is to tell something good, but it turns out jadi bad bila orang salah paham dengan cara aku express something... And I did that to my very best girl. Cara aku hanya sesuai pakei orang-orang Barat (foreigner). Sedikit sebanyak aku dapat rasa adap ketimuran aku terhakis juak sebab cara hidup di sitok yang suka berterus terang depan-depan dalam apa juak perkara.

By the way, don't worry about it. Aku dah 25, so I know how to suit myself with changes in this life. Diam di England for nearly 4 years, jauh dari family & friends aku belajar banyak benda pasal hidup. So now aku belajar balit pasal relationship. Life is all about learning. 

Thanks to my beloved girl, Nurul Zawiyah for giving me chance to improve. I'll do my best for her. Soon or later, I know I can change. But please understand, I can't change immediately. I have to do it slowly. Because I believe immediate change won't last long. So don't worry my love... You're the only one that I love and care of. I wanna be your very best partner. You know every dream and plan I have for you, don't you. I'm sorry for what I've done for you. Please be patient because I'm in Transitional Stage. Don't you love me for what I am? And I really appreciate that. And I wanna give my very best to you....

 

Brand new me...

Assalamualaikum...

I just came back from my beloved hometown, Kuching. I departed on 10/01/09 @ 8.00pm (GMT:8.00) and arrived in Manchester on 11/01/09 @ 11:45am (GMT: 0:00). Usually I'll come back to Manchester happily because I got my life (house that I rent & profession) here. But this time it's slightly different. It's so hard leaving Kuching and it cannot be helped...

Alhamdulillah.... After 5 years being a single guy and I resisted love so much (not because I'm too choosy), I finally found someone that I really in love with. Someone that opened my heart to accept love once again. Ohhh... It's so sweet to fall in love again.

If I could have 3 wishes, I wouldn't wish for the stars, the moon, the riches and this life. But I would wish for 25 hours a day, 8 days a week and 13 months a year to spend a longer time with you.

Please wait for me because for sure I'll be back again. My heart and soul belong to Sarawak, my parents, family, friends and you.... That's the element in my life that I'll shouldn't forget and never forget... So don't afraid that I'll never return. Should I be dead before returning home, that's the only reason you'll never see me again....

Till we meet again my love... Nurul Zawiyah...

I Fall So Deep - EOL

Sarawak... Where I belong..

When talking about Sarawak, it makes me so emotional. No matter how great Britain is, still nothing compare to Sarawak. For me Kuching is greater than London tho we don't have the remarkable Underground Tube, Traffalgar Square, Oxford Street, Hyde Park, Embankment and Buckingham Palace. In fact if i compare those things to what we have in Sarawak, we have all that, that we should proud of. For example:

Kuching = London

Miri = Manchester

Sibu = Wales

Bintulu = Midlands

Underground Tube = Range of public busses & Pak tambang

Traffalgar Square = Square at Waterfront

Oxford Street = India Street

Hyde Park = Park at Pustaka

Embankment = Kuching Waterfront

Buckingham Palace = Astana

See... We got all that in Sarawak. We even have the largest cave in the world which can accomodate 5 London's St. Paul Cathedral, 40 Boeing 747 side by side, hundreds of double decker bus. We have the virgin rain forest, beautiful islands and beaches. You name it, you couldn't get that here in Britain. That's why I'm proud being Sarawakian.

Instead of meeting family and friends, I got list of people that I'm gonna meet while in Kuching. They are my political mentor and my business contact. Everytime I'm coming home, I need to meet up with those people to build strong connection. So that when the time I'm coming home for good I already have a strong base in Sarawak. It cannot be denied, that's how things work in Malaysia. You have to gamble to success in this game.

The most imoprtant person I'm gonna meet is my "Favourite Girl". She waits for me patiently. I'll spend my time everyday with her. Urgghhh... I just can't describe how meaningful and important she is for me... Yeah... This time I got to talk to my parents that I definitely  want a serious relationship. I believe they will not gonna oppose me this time because I've done too much to improve my future from nothing to something. I've built their confidence in me. I've made them proud and all that.

Yeahh... I'm looking forward for my holiday this time... It's a trip to happiness, a trip to "Complete Kaz", a trip to where my heart and soul belong... Sarawak is not everything... Sarawak is something....